these days i feel old. and tired. (is that a) smudged eye-make up, b) a black eye or c) exhaustion?)
these days feel urgent. frenetic. all year i've assured myself it'll ease once we have the baby/get to 6 weeks PP/ get to 3 months/move north/return home/go back north. maybe this is just how it is from now, with 5 kiddos?
these days i feel more irritated than peaceful. quicker with sharp words than with warm smiles. more condemning than encouraging.
these days i really feel on the back foot. always playing catch up. the laundry, the vacuuming, the 2 year old's attitude...
these days i feel so many demands. relentless demands. my children, husband, home, business. a friend commented that i should make more dolls to avoid the "pinning problem" because demand is outgrowing the supply. she is so right, and i know it. but there it is again...the demand.
these days i wonder what has to go - the homeschooling? Tiny Eyes? (just the thought makes me want to stamp my foot and clutch these things tighter!)
these days i long to understand how to have a heart like Mary's in this madly-paced Martha's life - but Lord, there is so.much.to.do! who will do the work if I don't? dishes don't do themselves!
these days are so precious, and so fleeting. i don't want to miss this season in looking forward to the next. after all, it is every season that makes up a year.
how are you doing these days, friends?
do you get some of this, or is it just me?
thank you for reading... x
my sweet alabaster ginger-bear x
images taken by Ty, 6 years