as well as including important times like, birth days and feeding times, the motherhood manual should have also included these two times: 10pm and 3am.
10pm Guilt Hour
this is when there's been a cool-down period from being kid-sapped and you start thinking like this: {i did blankblankblank SO terribly today. my kids will be eternally scarred. i'm not fit to be a mother. i should adopt my kids out....etc}
and 3am Worry Hour
this is when problems seem insurmountable and overwhelming. you should at all costs never wake between 3-4am (unless of course your newborn is crying and needs feeding...) however, if you should happen to wake, pray sleep will return hastily before you notice that enormous Worry standing at the end of your bed, wanting to worry your sleep away.
i'm used to the 10pm Guilt Hour but this morning i was woken by a babe that needed to pee at 4am and woah! hello Worry Hour!
i may have had a minor freak out about having FIVE children.
and...(you can laugh if you need to, but problems stand BIG and REAL at the end of one's bed when it's 4am)...producing enough breastmilk to keep a fifth child alive as well as doing everything i am currently doing.
yup, freeeakkked oouuuttt!
needless to say, we are already now in high-prep mode for baby's arrival. i'm talking CHORES TRAINING!! oh yes. training habits hard now to save on nagging later (hopefully!!)
oh, and if anyone has tips for getting (multiple) kids into the car without having to swallow a bottle of blood-pressure tablets, i'd be deeply grateful. (aside: i sometimes envy animal mamas who never have to find clothes and socks and shoes for each of their babies. or train them to do chores...sheesh, cruisy!)
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ps. don't tell my mum i freaked out. it's cool....really... ;)